today was yet another rough day. i was doing okay until i woke up. went to group discussed how i constantly feel like dying had hospitlization threatened to me i fucking hate when people threaten the hospital its not helpful. then i went home and hung around doing some art that i'll post tonight in a few mins actually. went to my friends then went to the first aa meeting of the night. that didn't go to well i left after three mins i had a panic attack it was too small of a room and too many creepy old men. my mom came and got me and then we tried anther meeting closer to home the same thing happened im a bit of a mess at the moment i wish i could control my anxiety though i think if i coudl i wouldnt' be looking for so many escapes no matter how much trouble they get me into. hopefully ill be able to sleep tonight. though the only thing that im happy about is the weight that im losing due to not eating and purging any food that passes through my lips, i hope you all are doign well im sorry for bitching
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Sorry your not feeling well hun. *hugs* and I'm here if you need anything
"Pushing through the fear is easier than living with the underlying fear that comes from a feeling of helplessness."
Kinda confusing, but after you've read it a few times and put it into action, you begin to understand it. Anyway, i hope this post didn't sound like preaching or anything-the last thing i wanted. take care, steph x